What do you do when you find out that your child has been diagnosed with a condition that is going to change the life you had imagined? Well, I got mad. I got mad at the good lord who blessed me with this beautiful child. I could not understand why he would do this to my little boy. All I wanted was to be able to take this all away from him and for it to just go away. I had a hard time accepting that my precious baby boy has this condition. I thought "If I accept this then I'm saying that I'm OK with it and I'm not, I want different for him, I don't want to see him suffer." Oh god he is mine and why? One day I came home after dropping the kids off at school dropped to my knees and just sobbed. I began praying to God asking him the questions that I had in my mind. I was pacing the house just crying asking him the same questions over and over. Then I began to ask him for strength. At that moment I needed his help. I knew that I was not going to be able to do it on my own. I needed an angel to walk with me. I know that he was listening because now I believe that he has sent me an angel, he sent me Logan. My precious baby boy. Our rock. Our anchor. Logan is going to teach our family more about life then we will ever be able to teach him. I hope to be able to tell our story in a realistic but positive way. I'm hoping that our story will be an inspiration to someone else someday.
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